Schizocrisy

I for one, and am sure many of you, have been piqued by strains of hypocrisy latent in my psyche. This is one characteristic that is the subject of immense scorn throughout the world. If any person deviates from his standpoint at any juncture of time, he is deemed unworthy and people cast him off. As was simplistically defined by someone, Hypocrisy = | actions-beliefs|, or rather when one's actions deviate from his/her stated beliefs. Though this definition may not be politically correct, it would suffice for now. For example, i believe that i should not let prejudice rule my actions. Still for absolutely no reason, i flinch when any hooded black guy walks by me. True, it is a developed reflex from various inputs but it is totally unacceptable. Another strain in hypocrisy in me is to pray daily in the morning and evening instinctively even though i have ,or at least believe i have no religious tendencies. What could this be? Another example - One part of me believes in mental integrity and non deviation from the rational, wheras another part strives to eke out a connection with an altered state, the delusional. Many of these feelings are easily manifest while listening to music. From the psychadelic waves of one genre to the absolute technical prowess of another. I could almost feel a conflicting self. Hence the term Schizocrisy (It's pretty lame i know). For that part, i am pretty lame.. since i did not want to assess the deviant components as my own for sheer anxiety.

It is the natural tendency of anyone to feel anxious when there is an imbalance between actions and beliefs. Only that this level of anxiety lasts different for different people. Although some of my stated beliefs contradict actions, they at least concur with my internal beliefs and i am happy for that. Its the kind where stated beliefs and internal beliefs dont match that i cant stand.
That said there could be two extreme cases : First case when a person moulds his beliefs to suit his/her desires and actions. Second case when a person is so blindly devoted into his/her beliefs that he/she cant do anything else than to conform with the belief. Call it an anomaly in the equation or whatever, i absolutely detest people representing the above two cases.

As a closing statement I would like to redefine hypocrisy. Hypocrisy = |internal beliefs-stated beliefs|. I'm sure thats what most of us believe :).

Ecstacy

This base emotion manifests in so many ways, one can 'waste' a lifetime studying the demographic characteristics and stuff like that. Assuming the role of a statistician, i can tell that apart from drugs (which a minor population really do and which is terribly blown out of proportion) music and sex are the two obvious contenders to the ecstacical throne. The brain makes an intimate connection with the mind. There are multiple levels reached. Neuro transmitters shoot out through synapses linking the whole system to this immensely pleasurable source. The hippocampus to the hypothalamus - pathway is set. There is no stopping it. Skin assumes a strong impenetrable stature. Hairs rise up (no this is not fear i am talking about) like spears thrust against any offending agent that snatches the body from the source. Your eyes thankfully endure a blurring experience to be taken off the burden of constantly supplying the thankless body with picture perfect giga pixeled images. LUngs and heart unfortunately at this junture of time have to get their asses up and pump their muscles since the whole body is greedily eating away oxygen. The brain loses cognitive and perceptive abilities.

All this happens in a single fraction like what's happened to me. Fortunately i am in a time bubble.. therefore i hold on to the ecstacical rights long enough to write this.

Trying to come to terms with the displaying of your thoughts across this medium. It is nothing but pure pontification of your neural hypothalmic senses. Your mind reaches into a critical state that loses all sense of reality and spews out words that dont make sense, like what's happening now, and gets great satisfaction with response from other humanogens that reciprocate or reitierate what it states. The basic phenomenology is that you treat your post as a systematic conveyance of ideas either designed to positively criticize and debunk or acquiesce to a previously established theory or evoke a seemingly original piece from your confused neurons. When one gets into such a sort of activity, that person is not in his senses. Well what the hell, its kinda boring being in senses after all. Makes sense to get out of it once in a while through this harmless medium. Kinda getting into a paradox.